I realized that Kate’s feet will never again look like they do now, once she starts walking. I was tickling her today thinking they will never again be so soft or look like little cushions, covered in baby fat. They will grow and get stronger, she will be running around, covering them in dust and mud and jump in the puddles after it rains and they won’t be baby feet any more. I am so scared of her growing so fast, constantly being chased by the feeling that i’m missing something. What if i miss to kiss her baby toes for the last time before they are not silky and fat any more?